Understanding

There are many things that my head understands but my heart can not fathom. I need it to catch up!

I get anger...

I really do. But I also understand that just bc you might be angry, a license to try and get smart doesn't come with it. As hard as it might be, checking yourself when you're angry is the most mature thing you can do. It's helpful for everyone too bc then you won't have to be embarrassed when someone checks you, for you. And it's better for you to not take out your anger on the person who is an innocent bystander. *getittogether*

I just don't know...

I can not change someone's lifestyle.  what I can change is my attitude...but I don't have an attitude. I just don't like their lifestyle.  I don't agree with their life choices and I can't get with their process but i'm right in the mix with them.  the best I can do is remove myself. so I don't have to be bothered...

Nobody knows...

...the trouble I feel! Ugh...I won't be secluded. Satan can't win...but surely I'm not interested in continuing to put myself out there when I feel alone, unloved and uncared for. But God in His sovreignty shows me how much He loves me through man's rejection.
Since my sinful heart longs for it so. Teach me Your ways, oh God.

i'm baaaaacckk!

not like I have avid viewers but ...just thought it was time to officially re-startblogs of randomness!

what fun this will be : D

seriously...??

u can be saved and still wanna punch somebody, right?

boy, am I frustrated.

I'd really like to punch someone in the face and then do a mexican hat dance around their 'knocked out'-unmoving body...a little harsh, right? yeah a lil, but I am NOT happy in this current situation. I just don't know how it is I am supposed to help ppl who don't listen to you. I mean the obvious HUMAN thing to do would be to abort the mission but I won't do that...I'm not a quitter and I don't wanna upset my Boss. So then I guess all that's left to do is SUCK IT UP, KEEP IT PUSHING AND SHUT UP! But I'm not too keen on that either...I just want these ppl to listen...get it the freak together so I can move on and GET BACK HAPPY! And furthermore, on to the next HIGHER step...ughghgh! Plus...I'm not much for bending the me I'm meant to be...I shouldn't have to compromise ME in order to make YOU feel good...WHAT DO THEY THINK THIS IS??!??!?!?!? Flippin' jerkfaces. I am me...so if you can't accept THAT...HOW IS I'M S'POSED TO HELP YOUR CRAZY SELF!?!?

PPL NEED TO BE DELIVERED FROM THEMSELVES!
THEY NEED TO STOP LYING TO OTHER PPL...WE DON'T BELIEVE U...SO STOP LYING TO YOURSELF!
help me God, to stay focused on my task at hand and show me the tools to help these ppl. PLEASE!