Understanding

There are many things that my head understands but my heart can not fathom. I need it to catch up!

I get anger...

I really do. But I also understand that just bc you might be angry, a license to try and get smart doesn't come with it. As hard as it might be, checking yourself when you're angry is the most mature thing you can do. It's helpful for everyone too bc then you won't have to be embarrassed when someone checks you, for you. And it's better for you to not take out your anger on the person who is an innocent bystander. *getittogether*

I just don't know...

I can not change someone's lifestyle.  what I can change is my attitude...but I don't have an attitude. I just don't like their lifestyle.  I don't agree with their life choices and I can't get with their process but i'm right in the mix with them.  the best I can do is remove myself. so I don't have to be bothered...

Nobody knows...

...the trouble I feel! Ugh...I won't be secluded. Satan can't win...but surely I'm not interested in continuing to put myself out there when I feel alone, unloved and uncared for. But God in His sovreignty shows me how much He loves me through man's rejection.
Since my sinful heart longs for it so. Teach me Your ways, oh God.

i'm baaaaacckk!

not like I have avid viewers but ...just thought it was time to officially re-startblogs of randomness!

what fun this will be : D

seriously...??

u can be saved and still wanna punch somebody, right?

boy, am I frustrated.

I'd really like to punch someone in the face and then do a mexican hat dance around their 'knocked out'-unmoving body...a little harsh, right? yeah a lil, but I am NOT happy in this current situation. I just don't know how it is I am supposed to help ppl who don't listen to you. I mean the obvious HUMAN thing to do would be to abort the mission but I won't do that...I'm not a quitter and I don't wanna upset my Boss. So then I guess all that's left to do is SUCK IT UP, KEEP IT PUSHING AND SHUT UP! But I'm not too keen on that either...I just want these ppl to listen...get it the freak together so I can move on and GET BACK HAPPY! And furthermore, on to the next HIGHER step...ughghgh! Plus...I'm not much for bending the me I'm meant to be...I shouldn't have to compromise ME in order to make YOU feel good...WHAT DO THEY THINK THIS IS??!??!?!?!? Flippin' jerkfaces. I am me...so if you can't accept THAT...HOW IS I'M S'POSED TO HELP YOUR CRAZY SELF!?!?

PPL NEED TO BE DELIVERED FROM THEMSELVES!
THEY NEED TO STOP LYING TO OTHER PPL...WE DON'T BELIEVE U...SO STOP LYING TO YOURSELF!
help me God, to stay focused on my task at hand and show me the tools to help these ppl. PLEASE!

OMG!

People are unbelievable...i mean really. this is crazy. if only it were worth it, to blast them out...lol. but since it's not...i can only say i did my part so I'm done!

THANX!

I wanna punch somebody in the FACE!!!

shit, fuck , shit. fuck fuck FUCK! I HATE that I have to write my feelings down bc it's better to deal w/them this way then risk hurting someone's punk ass feelings or hurting their stupid pride. i'm done w/this shit...TODAY. shit.

the fact is...i TRY and ppl just don't care. fine...that's fine. but when i don't care, don't expect me to. YOU fucked up your good thing. bitch!

confused

how is it that someone that has been so immature, until (maybe) the day they had a child, can accuse you (who has helped them from your own experience and mature insight) of being "young"? wtf!?! where did that even come from? like seriously, what? since you can't explain or won't, i can only gather that you got the game all wrong...which promotes my point.

rude~

the thing that gets me the most...

is how is it possible for someone to do something due to a sense of obligation? It is one thing to want to self-lessly do something for another for their benefit bc you honestly want to help or even please them (ie to make them happy which in turn makes you happy) but if you are pissed off bc YOU decided to do something that YOU did not want to do all bc YOU somehow felt obligated to do for/with/bc of that person...wtf is your problem? don't do it~

Loyalty is not fair-weather fidelity when things are beneficial to you, but undying devotion even when you are positioned to take one for the team.

the nerve of some ppl

i find it utterly ridiculous how ppl can show their colors so smugly. how hard is it to let someone know u don't give a darn about them? whatever happened to ppl who were straight forward and did not dilly dally in the arts of bullshit?
whoo wee

ing the kettle black.

How foolish it is, to think that someone will do the things you, yourself, refuse to. Don't be a dumb ass all of your life...realize when the pot is call

ing back at you. Wake up and realize that more often than not it is the man in the mirror who is responsible for your own misery.

Finds it extremely sad that full grown adults spend their days blaming other ppl for their short comings. When you point out your finger, three are point

One of my BIGGEST pet peeves!

I just hate it, when strange ppl/strange numbers call my phone. I've had my number for 80 million years and for some random ashy person to call me and not leave a message really burns my biscuits! Can't stand it...especially before 7:00a.m. What the FREAK, man?!?

Sometimes, we search too hard for what's right in front of us.

A true mark of a feeble man is a lie offered when he had the chance to tell the truth. A righteous man will offer truth at all opportunities.