I'm freaking out a little...

Is it bad that I don't want to be IN my friends wedding? I mean, I def. wanna go. I'd even throw some cash at it if I had it...I'm super amped that they are getting married but I just don't want to wear that damn bridesmaids dress. All dresses are not made for ALL the women you choose to be your bridesmaids. Arrgghhh! I'm kinda getting anxiety about this shit man! fuck me! Oh well...next time somebody TELLS ME and not ASKS ME to stand up for them in their wedding...no matter who it is, I'm saying no.